I got a sms from Jedi this morning, he wrote: good morning angel :)
That sms really brightens up my morning. I called him and he told me stories bout yesterday and about his car. Oh dear, 'lontong' is gone.. I love that car! Full of memories :')

Then he told me to check my email, and when I read his email, it washed me out. I cried. It's so painful. I cant even write the exact words, it's just too painful.

INTERUPTING NETWORK: My dad is having an affair with another woman, and my mom just knew about it last night.

Dear Jedi, why? why? cant u hug me anymore when I'm feeling down? Cant u embrace me in your arms, whenever I feel insecure. Cant u give me a kiss for every sorry I've said? Cant you stare right in my eyes, and tell me that everything's gonna be alright?

[crying]

I'm not amazing, I'm a failure.